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"She seemed to come suddenly upon happiness as if she had surprised a butterfly in the Winter woods"
(edith wharton)


Saturday, 18 October 2008

a conscious decision and probably a shock to many

I admit for years I have desperately wanted to discover my roots, to fly halfway across the world.. to trace where I actually come 'from'.

I have recently read that plane travel contributes in a large way to green house gases & I have started to question the ethics of plane travel....I suppose I could tell all who will listen that i have compost bins and i plant trees to offset the greenhouse affect of my air travel, similar that the likes of Bono and Madonna do..but that just does not cut it for me.. nor am I rich and famous, so really, I can't use that excuse, now can I? Or I could tell myself that the world is in such a sad and sorry way that my little bit of air travel won't make a whole lot of difference anyhow. Or I could be completely and utterly selfish and think, who cares?.. and just go.
BUT -
I am here in this vast ancient land, mostly unexplored by me... I have my homeland to travel around and yet to discover, the land that I was born to, to see many natural wonders that, so far, I have only read about. We have ancient sacred sites such as Uluru and Kata Tjuta (the Olgas).. we have rainforests where our nature spirits live... we have Sacred Aboriginal sites where I can sit, we have our bush where I can walk and trees that have been here since time began.
I found this when I did a search for Sacred sites in Australia: In Central NSW extensive megalithic stone alignments and other astronomical structures dating back 10 000 to 15 000 years and which suggests the former presence in Australia of a highly advanced civilization of unknown origin. These structures include standing stones weighing 20 tons and carved stone heads. The heads were found near mysterious stone alignment and other formations.
I can make flower essences from our native plants and I can use our very own crystals that are found nowhere else in the world. I am beginning to feel like I belong here.....
SO
I have decided to 'postpone' my trip to Cornwall.. I have lost the desire to walk the land of my ancestors, I don't know why this has happened but I feel a need to find myself here in this land that I was born to and the option to travel to England is always there for me if I ever want or need to. Is it the right decision? I don't know, but I have to follow my inner guidance.

happening at Inglewood - my potatoes are up, my tomatoes are in and I have zucchini, ruby chard and rhubarb all growing nicely. I hope to put beans and cucumbers in this weekend. We have a family of sparrows in one of my birdhouses and last week, I had a magpie accompany me nearly all day while I gardened... she sat with me as I weeded and dug... I am indeed blessed in this life...

25 comments:

solsticedreamer said...

oh robyn what a brave decision for you to make, but you have been sounding so happy and settled and content i can fully understand why. how funny you have lost the immediate need to follow your ancestors here but there is obviously a reson why and i am sure you will find out why in good time :)

Tracy said...

Robyn, you have to do what you feel is best for you above all else. You are free to explore your homeland to your heart's content! :)

Wendy said...

Following your own inner guidance is the only way to go. I am happy you made a decision that feels right to you. As you say, you can always go at some later date.

Your garden sounds wonderful. I love to see what's happening in other peoples' gardens, especially half way round the world!

Up here in Canada, we are preparing for cold and winter. My garden is finished until spring.

amelia said...

I think it's wonderful that you have made this decision. You must be happier within yourself to do it.

Explore your land, spend the money at home!!

Caitlin said...

I completely understand your decision Robyn and I agree with Solsticedreamer that it was a brave one for you to make, but following your instinct is only, way to live.

Caitlin
XX

linda may said...

I am so proud of you making that decision and discovery Robyn. Be a proud Aussie, good on you.
You have me intrigued about the stone monoliths and I want to know more. I vaguely remember hearing about something like that being investigated in the Snowys, was it up there? Where did you read about that.
Isn't spring wonderful, my favourite time of year!

Fire Byrd said...

What you want to do is the only thing to do, and there will be a reason for it, which of course in the way of these things may take a while to uncover.

peppylady said...

Best thing is to your inter self and listen to your positive energy they will guide you.

Coffee is on.

Pearl said...

Your realization makes me think of kiwi friends with British ancestry believing they'd feel a sense of home and belonging when they visited England. This wasn't the case at all being in England didn't feel familiar and they realized that they'd been home all along.
Your homeland is a beautiful and sacred place.
Pearl

Annie said...

Don and I did the same thing Robyn though not for so ethical reasons. Much as we would like to experience the British Isles again, we can't justify the expense these days. There is so much here to experience that we decided to limit ourselves to basically the northern hemisphere. I suspect that all the in between of Alaska and Mexico Canada to Florida, will offer us plenty. Happy exploring in your homeland.

Sacred Suzie said...

This is huge Robyn! You sound like you are truly feeling grounded and at home and living in the now. You give me hope.

Pam said...

Wow Robyn, I'm surprised, and yet not suprised if you know what I mean.Timing is a funny thing. I'm a strong believer in the "powers that be", and I think your trip to Cornwall is being delayed so proper connections can be made "down the track", and circumstances can fall into place.When my husband and I, in our twenties, decided to forgo Scotland and Wales on our world backpacking adventures, and get on the Qantas jet home to Australia from Heathrow, we felt it was time.It took us thirty years to get back to Wales, and it was the highlight of my life.I feel it has meant so much more spiritually.Not saying it will take you that long, but you WILL go. I know it. When the time is absolutely right.In the mean time enjoy our land, your journey and research. I feel there is so much in store for you. The pot is stirring, making you restless I guess and agitated, but how else are dormant things supposed to rise to the surface. You go girl.(I mean stay!)Good things in store! xxx

Ruth said...

I'm sure this is the right decision Robyn and for the right reasons too. If only more people would cut down on air travel. Your Wild Woman spirit is Australian - and what a fantastic land to explore! I want to know more about those stone heads and things - could they be related to the ones on Easter Island?

Monique said...

Hi Robyn, you live in such a beautiful country. I can imagine you want to explore your own country.
The veggies sound great. I have just removed my zuchini. I had such a lot of them during the Summer. It was great !!!
Hope your veggies will be plenty too.

Krissie said...

I agree with pam too - timing is everything! Thats when it feels 'right'.

Dont fight it or push it along, youll know in your heart when it is time to go to Cornwall.

Cat said...

Good for you!

I'm happy for you!

Gemma said...

Hi dear Robyn,
Whatever choices you make are best for you. As long as you are following your heart. Hope you are enjoying lovely spring weather. Thinking of you.
xx

Krissie said...

hey Robyn this is my second comment to you... I am really wondering where you are... I am missing your more frequent posts, yes I know...no pressure but I am getting withdrawal....please post in!

Gena said...

Hi Robyn,just popping by to send you some blessings from across the pond! still following your heart I see! and thats exactly what you should do,hope you and yours are happy and healthy,much love,Gena xx

Nicole said...

Hello Sweetpea!

You need to do what is right for you. You walk in your own shoes and do not need to explain to anyone. I, for one, am very proud at how far you have come these past few years. You are an amazing woman and I am extremely proud that you are my friend.

xox Nicole

Rapunzel said...

You "sound" peaceful and content with your decision, dear friend, so surely it is the right one for you!

xoxoxox

judie said...

Hey Robyn. Just stopping by for a minute. Your garden is beautiful, and your writing is peaceful. Love you. xoxoxo

Jo said...

It's a shame I won't get the chance to meet you but I do understand. I think its something more people will decide to do.

A bird in the hand said...

I applaud your decision. You've realized that you are exactly where you're meant to be -- and you're following your instincts. Bravo!

Sheila said...

Dear Robyn, I have said this to you in an email I know, but I am finally able to comment.
This tells me you are in a good place, and feeling more content than you have for a long while.
As much as I love Britain, I know Canada is my home now. As one of your other commenters here said, people go to find their families roots, only to realise they had been at 'home' all the time.
hugs
x