"She seemed to come suddenly upon happiness as if she had surprised a butterfly in the Winter woods"
(edith wharton)

Friday, 4 July 2008

the day after New Moon

gee, two posts in two days!! but I just had to get it all down! (to 'get this' post, you must read the previous one about the new moon)
Yesterday, I suffered.. I tried to be 'nice' to Joe when he came home, but I still felt frustrated and angry.. so I just said nothing and anyhow, he had done not a thing wrong so why take this all out on him?
After watching Sense and Sensibilities, I went and sat in my Sacred Room to sit in silence, to maybe pull a card and to release anger, grumpiness & bitterness... but as I sat, I wriggled and I fidgeted.. so I gave up and just pulled an animal card which was Magpie.. indicating 'spiritual knowledge and the power that comes with it. True wisdom must be deserved and gathered over a lifetime and embraced as a way of must become a path of the heart, explored with absolute devotion'.. yes, I thought to myself, I kind of do that...then..'we must turn our weaknesses into strengths and our darkest hours into gifts of power.. embark on an expedition to reclaim inner balance and authority'... Magpie is a doorkeeper to other realms, a guardian who lets only those willing to honour the sacred balance between the good and bad,light and dark and feminine and masculine in all things to explore her world..' then it went on to say 'your are being guided to a place of awareness. You are being primed for a deepening of purpose.. magpies arrival heralds an obligatory confrontation of fears & a reshuffling of thoughts.. ' and the funny thing is that yesterday while hanging my washing out, a magpie accompanied me.. wasn't scared on bit and sat on the fence for quite some time while I stirred my comfrey tea.....

then I sat and decided that to clear this angry energy it might be a good idea to strip my altar, leave it bare til sometime in the future and clean up the room.. put books away, pick up scribbled notes and fold blankets up, anointed my feet and hands with Spikenard Oil that was sent to me by someone I love dearly xo and as I anointed I closed my eyes and asked for help.... It was not a very tidy space for a sacred one...and as I put books away, something fell out of one, something I had made a book mark out of... something that made alot of sense to me as I read it...

The Guest House

This being human is a guest house.
Every morning a new arrival.

A joy, a depression, a meanness,
some momentary awareness comes
as an unexpected visitor.

Welcome and entertain them all!
Even if they're a crowd of sorrows,
who violently sweep your house
empty of its furniture,
still, treat each guest honorably.
He may be clearing you out
for some new delight.

The dark thought, the shame, the malice,
meet them at the door laughing,
and invite them in.

Be grateful for whoever comes,
because each has been sent
as a guide from beyond.

~ Rumi ~

so how is that for being helped from beyond? I had no intention of tidying that room at 10pm last night, no intention at all.
(by the way - the Animal dreaming cards are by Scott Alexander King.. and I can thoroughly recommend them!)


Kathryn Knoll said...

See how that works? When you are open, so many synchronicities come to you. Awesome! Good for you, good for all of us!hugs, Sr.K

Sorrow said...

Doesn't it always just unfold that way, or should i say "land at your feet that way"? wishing you a moment of peace from the throes of frustration..
Be gentle with you...

Pam said...

I have never thought about honouring our emotions before. Dealing with them, managing them, trying to explain them have all been phrases in my emotional vocabulary but this is a new insight Robyn, and such a valuable one. Thank you. I guess the next step is to honour that place in others. Such an interesting post.

Anonymous said...

Those cards sound great Robyn !!
That was a certain sign, it's great when that happens, now you can move on and implement the things shown to you !!
I hope you will have a lovely time this weekend, thoughts getting clearer. Did you ever put a picture of your sacred room online or is it sacred and secret ; )
Have a wonderful weekend
love from The Netherlands

By the way I have put an overview of my backgarden on my blog
my little witches web ; )

Gemma said...

The synchronicity and messages that come never cease to amaze me. Always there for you if only you follow your intuition.

Leanne said...

Hi Robyn, glad you feel less angry now, with a little helping hand!

Dont forget i am having a giftaway tomorrow if youre interested in taking part.


Leanne x

Anonymous said...

I hate being in anger. Lately I've been studying the Tao and it seems we have a choice to be there, or not to be. I understand the concept, and am working on it, but haven't achieved it! Although, I am getting better . . . It sounds like you are too! You have done a great job moving through it!
One of the persons I have really gotten a lot out of about our personal attitudes, by understanding how our brains function, is Jill Bolte Taylor. Look her up on U Tube. It's fabulous. And, Oprah on Soul Series (yes, again!) has done an interview with her, and Jill has also written a book . . . My Stroke of Insight: A Brain Scientist's Personal Journey.
I just ordered it . . .
Blessed be and remember where there is darkness the sun must shine through~

Sacred Suzie said...

Beautiful! That is a perfect sign from the Other Side of someone reaching out and helping you after you asked for help.

Perhaps it's because the new moon was in Cancer but I am so emotional and feeling super insecure. I try and remember this is only a phase. It will pass and I will feel better soon.

A bird in the hand said...

I related to both posts, Robyn. And the idea to clear your sacred space was brilliant...and look at what happened. Following guidance from within/beyond, I believe in that with all my heart.

Stay warm.

tinker said...

I don't think I've ever read that particular Rumi quote before - so wise...and how cool that you should receive that message just when you needed it. As they say, there are no coincidences...

tinker said...

I hope you feel better soon!

Bollinger Byrd said...

serendipity that's what I think .
you were meant to be grumpy to find what you needed and learn from it.
byrd x

Ruth said...

A fascinating synchronicity Robyn.

Bimbimbie said...

Hi Robyn, I have my wings once again to visit and catch up with the posts I have missed. Hope you are feeling less liverish as my dad calls the grumps *!*

Caroline said...

The cards sounds wonderful - I'll look them up. (I've got loads already but not those!)

Sorry I've not been around, I've got behind in my blog reading...