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"She seemed to come suddenly upon happiness as if she had surprised a butterfly in the Winter woods"
(edith wharton)


Monday, 14 January 2008

the search and the struggle


you know, over the past few years, it has been a struggle for me.. this searching. But today, at this moment in time, I feel comfortable in my own skin.... I know that my search will continue but I feel deep in my soul that it won't be as frantic... I seem to be more accepting of 'things' and don't have that need to be liked and accepted by every single person that I come across. The need to belong is going... tomorrow, who knows but right now, I am in a good place. 'at last' - I can hear you all sigh!

I have changed my banner (yet again) to something that really resonates with me right now... the photo is one from my birthday and I chose it because Ruth emailed me and said : "I really love the photo of you with your faery wings on. I haven't seen such a close-up photo of you before and I felt quite strangely tearful when I looked into your eyes - I'm sure that I know you, and have done for a very long time!. I just kind of recognised you - and teary in the way that one feels when a piece of music is deeply stirring in some unknown way."

Are they eyes the doorway to the soul? It is amazing how this world wide web that we are weaving is actually connecting us all to souls from past lives. It is like it has all been planned with a bigger picture in mind.. well, of course it has! what an exciting journey we are all on and I feel blessed that each of you have come into my life .

at the moment I am trying Ayurvedic lifestyle 'rituals'... being a definite vatta body-type, I really thrive on routine so this is working for me right now. And I have a few books going... one is by Denise Linn - Secrets and Mysteries, the glory and pleasure of being a woman and the other is by Pythia Peay - Soul Sisters... oh and for lighter reading - Jane Eyre, which believe it or not, I have never read in my life. I tell you, I am a late bloomer! It seems I am living my life backwards... I swear, I am getting younger every day!
I haven't been in my garden in a long time.. it is either raining or too darn hot to venture outside and I am desperate to get my hands into the soil.. and also to go on my bush-walks once more...

19 comments:

kim said...

I love your new banner. Something resonates inside of me when I look at it...

judie said...

Robyn, your header photo is absolutely beautiful! And you look like you are only twenty! Your spirit is shining through! This is one photo you need to frame and put on your mantle. It's a forever picture.

amelia said...

You are beautiful and i'm glad one of us is making progress!!

Lady Laurie said...

Robyn,
I love your banner! You do indeed look beautiful and content. I am glad that you are in a good place right now.
Looking forward to seeing more photos! Hugs))

Sheila said...

Reading this reminded me to check the links you sent me. I am a kapha type. I will read into it more tomorrow.
Your banner is lovely, like you..!
hugs
xx

Moncha EilĂ­s said...

You are a busy bee, reading, rituals, walks, sounds great. Wish I had your energy at the moment ; )
I love the series and films of books by Jane Austen, but haven't read her either. Must place that on my to do list !!
So great to hear you are feeling good. You look wonderful, I love the pictures !!!
Have a great day !!

Anonymous said...

I love the beautiful banner too. I am reading the most fascinating book at the moment Robyn,printed at the Vasanta Press, The Theosophical Society,Adyar, Madras, India (that in itself is intriguing).It is called Devas and Men, and although published overseas in '77 and reprinted in '88, it is is conjuction with the "Southern Centre of Theosophy, Robe, South Australia".ISBN 81-7059-118-X.It is about nature spirits and elementals, lesser and higher angels, and ceremony, music and colour amongst other things.It is incredibly detailed, not light reading by any means. Just fascinating.Found it at a garage sale, blew the dust off and wow!From p.t.

sorrow11 said...

Miss R~ So good to read you are holding peace in your being today. I hear your hunger for the earth and i am waiting as well, and know the want. (My garden in covered in ice) I adore the new banner! gentle findings on your bush walks and looking forward to the seaside photo's!

A bird in the hand said...

The search never ends, but the struggling stops. Happy Birthday, dear heart. May you be well in your skin most of the time, if not all the time. xoxoxo

AnnieElf said...

Your new banner is beautiful Robyn - so soft and yeet focused. I find myself enjoying the reality of getting older. Life feels so much more settled.

Naturegirl said...

Miss R. I think the acceptance that you have in your heart and the peace that you feel is called turning 50!!!
Yes!! I am serious..it happened to me too in fact it happened to many a friend a know...welcome to our club!
YOU LOOK marvellous!!!
Ahhh..yes that banner is just so you...beautifull you!!Young looking YOU!! hugs NG

Leanne said...

its a beautiful photo, I love the pale colour, all the composite elements, very artistic. Leanne x

Ruth said...

I really like your new banner Robyn, and I'm glad you are feeling more peaceful. As you say, it is wonderful to be able to link up with people who resonate with one at a soul level.
By the way I did the ayurvedic test and I seem to be a weird mixture of all three types - typical!

solsticedreamer said...

i have no other words but this...lovely

Angela said...

Love the picture, Anne! I'm sorry I haven't visited the faery party much, but I will. I was without computer access for a few days and I've gotten behind.

Isn't it a freedom to not always be worried about what others are thinking of us? I, too, feel like I'm getting younger instead of older - lots of advantages to being a late bloomer!

Tracy said...

Robyn, so glad you have found your good place. Love the new banner. You look gorgeous!

Gemma said...

Love your blogs evolution...it grows and changes just like you.
The new banner is powerful and beautiful.

tinker said...

Your beautiful soul does indeed shine through your eyes' windows in this photo, Robyn. Hope you can stay cool - we're having early spring like weather here now - the trees are budding out, my bulbs are starting to come up - only thing is, it could be below freezing again, in another week - poor things! Enjoy your time inside reading and staying cool~XOXO

Carmen said...

Do you know how much I love everything you do?
xxooxx