the first appointment over and done.
I have breast calcifications. a few very small spots.
On Monday afternoon, I am going to Westmead clinic to have a mammotone biopsy where they take samples of the calcifications to see if they are cancerous. [this will hurt.]
then we go from there. I now have my own breast cancer nurse who I can call if I have fears or questions. I have her mobile number. which actually does put my fears at rest to a certain extent.
I asked Dr. French if it is cancer. he cannot say yes or no until he gets the results back next week
FACT: 80% of calcifications ARE NOT cancer. I have a one in five chance of these lumps being cancerous. which are very good odds
[at the moment, I wish I could lose myself in this street scene somewhere in Paris.. much like Mary Poppins did in the chalk pavement drawings.]
FACT: I am still bloody scared. I am still trying desperately hard to stay in the present moment and stop my mind from galloping into the Land of Whatifs...
[thanks so, so much for your continuing prayers, thoughts, comments and constant support.. I need you all more than ever at the moment. you are all my very own angels!]