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"She seemed to come suddenly upon happiness as if she had surprised a butterfly in the Winter woods"
(edith wharton)


Wednesday, 28 April 2010

a soothing voice is all it takes

early this morning, I woke up and went outside to water the vegies - a beautiful time coming up to Full Moon today & then Samhain this weekend.... after tending my plants & going back inside, dutch husband was making me a cup of tea & I casually mentioned that we needed to weed along the neighbouring fence.. he didn't know which fence i meant.. and I could feel frustration inside rising up and coming out of my mouth in hysteria [actually, it was more like mass hysteria except there is only one of me].....
all it took from him to calm me down were the words.. 'shhh, relax'.... he is good at calming my storms.

the emotional rollercoaster.. a lovely mix, Full Moon and Menopause, going hand in hand to make a woman some kind of irrational being, totally out of control of not only her bodily functions but also her emotions.. today, I even got to the point of thinking i may need some kind of counselling.. but later tonight, when I had my bath.. soaking in the herbs.. I heard my inner voice say to me : I am enough..... a lovely mantra I think. I am enough.
I have also decided to work through a book i have had for quite some time.. Walking in this world by Julia Cameron.. it kind of fell from my bookshelf this morning while I was looking for something else.. and the page fell open to 'anger'.. I took that as a strong sign from someone. so back to morning pages, artists dates and weekly walks...

home made chai latte.. white light protection under the pine tree with my Earth healing disc, crystal and a rose ~ a Full Moon Earth Healing. a blackbird on a park bench. yoga to beautiful flute music, stretching those hip joints, a cleansing lavender and sage bath and a cup [or 3] of oatstraw tea... this was my day

10 comments:

amelia said...

I also think that men take longer to 'catch' on to some things than women do and it makes me mad too. We expect them to think like us and they just don't!! I'm not saying that a womens brain is better, just different to a mans.

You and your hubby handled it very well and I guess that's one of the keys. Handling things as they come.

A bird in the hand said...

You'll have to give the chocolates to Joe. He is so supportive.

In your package you will find something about how this is also about your inner voice, not just the hormones....

Keep going!

xoxoxoxo

Debra She Who Seeks said...

Interesting about that book -- you know what they say: "There are no accidents!"

Diva Kreszl said...

I can so relate to those menopausal outbursts, thankfully mine have abated somewhat. I know that feeling of having words spewing from your mouth and the whole time your brain is saying 'stop talking now', 'don't say any more'. It's such an out of body experience that unless you've lived it you cannot imagine what it's like. Thankfully Dutch Husband seems to have a reall sense of just what you need :)

Manchester Lass, Now and Then said...

Love the last paragraph Robyn, it sounds just perfect. ♥ Linda xoxo

Manchester Lass, Now and Then said...

PS I forgot to say have a lovely day today. Beautiful morning here, weather is just perfect, birds are singing and the sun is shining♥

Pam said...

It does get better Robyn.I remember being in a principal's office after a bewildering teary outbreak, shakily accepting a cigarette,(at that time you could smoke at school!) and I don't even smoke, so glad your choices of relief from the onslaught are healthy ones!I laugh about it now, but its a retrospect thing and you will get there."This too will pass". Did you see the television program about quartz and it's qualities last night? Evidently Japanese women are employed to place the tiny pieces of quartz in intricate clockwork, because they have more concetration and ability than men. Perhaps they go home and take out the day's contained frustration on their loved ones.Who knows.I wonder what's Japanese for "I can't take much more of this, and get your owned damned tea".

Tinker said...

I love when synchronicities happen like that. Like little messages from the Universe...Glad you're feeling better now. xox

laoi gaul~williams said...

sounds lovely :)

here the sap is rising for beltaine :D

~Sheila~ said...

Chai Latte made with soy, it has to be my favourite hot drink.
All these challenges, 'power surges', whiskery chin, and mood swings will help make you an even wiser woman Robyn. It is all part of our journey. I began menopause late and at 61 am still going through all this. When it gets to be overwhelming I try to ground myself like you do, and spend some time alone to refocus on what is really important.
You seem to be handling it well, and I take inspiration from you, and knowing I am not going mad.
Big hugs dear friend..
xoxo