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"She seemed to come suddenly upon happiness as if she had surprised a butterfly in the Winter woods"
(edith wharton)


Thursday, 22 October 2009

"Comprehend and know, my youngest child,
nothing should scare or concern you.
Don't worry.
Do not fear any illness or vexation, anxiety or pain.
Am I not right here who is your Mother?
Are you not under my shadow and protection?
Am I not the foundation of your being
your sustenance, your happiness, peace and effortlessness?
Are you not in the fold of my mantle?
Do you need anything else?
Don't allow anything to disturb you any more."

Mary the Virgin of Guadeloupe to Juan Diego, December 12, 1531

right now, my heart is breaking in two as I watch my son, my first born, go through the absolute raw grief of a marriage breakup. I sit each morning, watching him get ready for work, worried that he may do something silly.. worrying throughout the day, constantly. There is nothing I can do except grab tightly to Mother Mary's mantle and be consoled by her peace.

at times like this, I always seem to turn to Mary.. last night, I fell asleep clutching my rosary beads to my heart... just wishing She could take the pain in my heart away.

is there hope for reconciliation in the marriage? I don't know.. at this moment, my focus is getting him through his grief. Time will tell what happens elsewhere.
I ask each one who visits me here, to wrap him in a cocoon of love...

21 comments:

mountainmama said...

sending love to you and your family~

Wendy said...

Oh Robyn, my heart goes out to you and your son. It's so hard to watch them suffer. And somehow we think that once they're "grown up", we won't worry about them so much. Ha!! That's a good one!!
I seem to be worried twice as much!!

Sending gentle hugs your way...

Debra She Who Seeks said...

Sending healing wishes to you and your son, hoping you may both find hearts ease in your time of pain.

amelia said...

Oh Robyn, how awful! I had no idea this was happening. I didn't even know you had a son!
I only ever read about your girls!!

If there should be a reconciliation I'm sure there will be but if it's not to be then it will be best for all.

Are there children involved?

gemma said...

All shall be well.

A bird in the hand said...

My heart goes out to your son. Be strong, hold him close. xoxo

onasilentsea said...

much love to you and your son.

Suzie Ridler said...

Oh this is so hard and not just because you are an amazing Mom but because you are an empath which will magnify the pain so much. I'm so sorry Robyn, hugs to you and your son.

Pam said...

Robyn I am so very sorry to hear this.Sometimes as mothers, we are a source of strength to our family and at night, in private shed many tears.We ask ourselves 'what is at play here?', because we cannot see the bigger picture.Faith is important.I am thinking of you and your family in this most difficult time. Comfort features strongly in spiritual texts, and I pray you continue to draw on this strength that is freely offered to us. I hold you in my thoughts. xxxxx

Ruth said...

I'm going out in the garden right now - see today's post on Wise Woman Journal. I'll send some healing and help your way while I'm there. xxx

Imogen said...

I'm so sorry to hear your sad news. Thoughts and prayers with all your family, and hopes that you all come through okay. A messy marriage breakdown is such a sad, vile thing.

Carol H said...

know that our Blessed Mother will always be there for you and your son. She protected my son in Iraq for a year, I prayed the Rosary every day until he was home. I have four children, all grown, but the worry is never ending. Know that your Mary postings have reminded me to continue praying the Rosary. I'll include you and your son in my prayers.

Paula - Buenos Aires said...

I´m still at the scratched knees tears stage, but even so I understand your pain. We´d do anything to spare them the grief.
Love and peace to you and your son. May he find the best possible path for him at the moment.

Fire Byrd said...

You know you have my love for you and him, my dear friend. Take care of you and him. Time will ease the pain whatever happens and that's all we (both) can hold on to.
xx

Linda - Gold Coast said...

Oh Robyn I am so sad and sorry to hear this. I truly wish and pray that there is hope for your son and daughter-in-law to reconcile and try to recapture the feelings of love and their dreams that they once had. Don't give up hope and I'm so pleased that you have Mary for comfort and strength during this time. ♥♥Linda xoxo

kim said...

I am really sorry to hear about this.
As a child of divorce and one who has gone through 1 (or two if you count the 8 year committed living together one), it's hard.

When I went through mine, mom said "It doesn't matter who initiated it or how amicable it is. It's hard on everyone."

Holly said...

Dear One, this is a very difficult time. The question of how best to put love into action without interfering is always a tricky thing.

In your prayers and in your heart ask for the correct thing....ask that you find peace in your knowledge that the best thing for us always comes about even when it seems harsh and cruel at the time.

Walk in peace so that your son can find a peaceful place to rest.

Work to be the peaceful place for him. And, know that I send Reiki to all of you with love and admiration.

"Proceed with a joyful heart and know that all will be well."

Laurie said...

Dear Robyn,
I am so sorry to hear about the breakup of your son's marriage. I know as mothers we want to be able to comfort and make everything better.
Saying prayers and sending you hugs))

laoi gaul~williams said...

oh robyn such sadness~sending warm thoughts across the land xoxooxo

~Sheila~ said...

Thinking of you
xx

Tinker said...

Sending thoughts of healing and love to your son and his family, and to his loving mother too. May all be well and all be well, and all manner of things be well~xoxo