it has been chilly in Woodford this month.. bone aching chilly.. today I woke to a perfect sunny day and was happy that i would finally get some washing done... no sooner had I finished the first load, the clouds started hovering.. not those rain clouds but the clouds that don't allow the sun to shine through.. stopping all warmth..
I have been trying to track a statue of Kali down.. to put on my altar..
I always get anxious when creating altars.. does it have to be in a central position so that each time I pass it, I am reminded of the presence of the Goddess.. or is it all right to tuck it away in my Sacred space... lighting a candle each morning...wish I knew.. trouble is my dining room is starting to look like a shrine to every Goddess who was ever worshipped..!!
anyhooo.. I finally found a statue today.. at a cost of $95 which is a tad more than I wanted to pay.. is it ok to question the cost of a Goddess? ..but I have just put my vintage Barbie dolls on ebay so hopefully they will sell and cover the cost of the statue.. moving energy around !! I bought a beautiful orchid yesterday for my Kali altar and need a few more things and then it will be complete.. not even sure what to look for when She does make herself known..
Last night, I was thinking of my spirit doll and how I could represent the changing of the angry, bitter and yes fear of my cancer treatments.. to something of beauty.. and as I lay in bed, looking at the butterfly mobile that Daisy sent me, telling her that I missed her.. I realised that a butterfly is the perfect symbol of beauty and change.. so I am going to add a butterfly to my spirit doll, sitting on my shoulder..I hope to work on that tonight.. I must have it finished by Thursday for the ceremony at Minnehaha Falls.
oh and the second installment of my cancer story is posted: off to the ball.. thanks for the support! Just writing this down on the blog has seen a huge change in me in this very short time.. (I think writing this cancer story is part of my membership of the Sisterhood of the Purple bicycle - I am certainly moving out of my comfort zone writing my memories..I am overcoming a fear, facing a shadow, and trying to allow myself Grace....)