And all the men and women merely players;
ok, I am back and ready to go on this next step of the journey... had a fantastic time away, although it was raining and absolutely chilly, I did get to walk in the moonlight.. mainly on my way to the amenities block.. but everytime I did, I looked up and there was the Moon accompanying me..
we found a push bike for me and although she needs a little work done, I fell in love when Dutch husband got her out of the back of the car. She has a bell and a perfect rack on the back. I cannot wait til he works his magick and she is ride-able.
I did alot of soul searching and you all know I do struggle with this journey of mine..I go from one persona to another in a blink of an eye, never knowing who I really am..oneday this person, the next day that - this hat, that hat.. and sometimes I think I may be a little loopy.. but maybe we all are. Maybe I am very normal.
but I found a solution, I think. I must play act. Each and every day, I must play act.. that is where my magick is. Whether it be Mrs March taking food or parcels to my sick friends, or little girls having cups of tea dressed from the dressing up box in their grandmas finery or a village wise woman who grows her own herbs and hangs amulets at the door to keep spirits away.. this is what I must do to keep myself sane and balanced. I must wear magick rose coloured glasses. It's ok to do that.
as I thought of how I could do this and I thought of how the voice of doubt is a constant companion, that voice that tells me to 'wake up to myself, I am a grown up, a 50yr old woman, a woman who should have more sense, a woman who has responsibilities and doesn't have time to play, to take those rose coloured glasses off'....
a memory of a friend came to mind.. when he turned 60. I put a party on for him with the theme of 'Arsenic and Old Lace'. Everyone was asked to come dressed appropriately and we had a bowl of vintage jewels for them to adorn themselves with, we had lots of old hats and lace shawls and one of our friends, an eccentric spirit, was having such fun, drinking copious amounts of champagne and adorning himself with a lace shawl and jewels.. a remark he made stuck with me: 'take a tip from us Queens, love, play & laugh..make magick'....
"playing house at the Gypsy Caravan"
and that is what I need to do... oh I know there will be days when I must be responsible and serious.. but even on those days, I must find a way to secretly bring the magick and play into my life.
I think while I was away, the Gypsy Caravan wove some magick into my soul!