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"She seemed to come suddenly upon happiness as if she had surprised a butterfly in the Winter woods"
(edith wharton)


Friday, 17 April 2009

Everybody cries. And everybody hurts, sometimes

just to let you know that Paul has taken a turn for the worse. The tumour has begun to grow back and he has been taken off all treatment. Next week he is going to palliative care.. I have no idea how long he has here on earth but I am asking that if you can, could you send some prayers.
also a while back I spoke of Rita.. she died early this week... peacefully but wisdom has gone with her.

I am tired. I haven't alot to say.. I sit wondering what I can blog about and nothing comes... kinda like blogging block.

I am not taking a break at all but I have no idea when I will post again. Maybe when my carrots need thinning or when the broad beans have flower or maybe I will be enthused when I spend the day in the garden tomorrow.... I just feel so drained
(I am going to try visiting blogs but please accept my apology here if I don't make it for a few days.. I am still thinking of my friends out in blog world.. you are like my rope to hang onto xo)

34 comments:

Genie Sea said...

Oh sweetheart! HUGS! I am so sorry to hear. I hope Paul does not suffer too much, and I send you all prayers of strength and healing.

Take your time, honey. We will be here for you.

amelia said...

Oh that's so sad. It's sad that we have no control over these things.
You must all be devastated having thought that things were going so well. I'm so sorry...

solsticedreamer~laoi gaul~williams said...

oh robyn i am so sorry... of course we will all know the reason if you are not around as much and will wait patiently for you to post.
go sit in your garden
xoxoxo

Tracy said...

Sorry to hear that Paul has taken a turn for the worse and to hear about Rita's passing. Praying dear friend... {{hugs}}

Kathryn Knoll said...

I know exactly how you feel, my Dear. When this happened to my friend Cindy, the tumor unresponsive to treatment and all hope of a change for the better it was as if there was no air in the balloon, no wind in the sails. I looked around at my world and asked myself: What do you need to feel better?" I saw in my mind's eye little dancing figures, fairylike, hanging from tree branches and fences, dancing in the wind, dancing and celebrating. So, I went to my studio and made little clay resurrection figures, dancing people out of clay. And, when they were fired I brought them home and started a tradition that everyone who came to visit Cindy would be invited to sit down and make a little expression of solidarity with the mystery process of transition that was going on. There was a box of beads and ribbons, crystals and sparkelies, wings and such along with paint and glue for each person who wanted to made an expression of life and celebration to hang from the ceiling. It was a way to cope and deal with the inevitable that we were facing of loosing our friend. It was a very sacred time and it helped all of us left behind the most. Cindy could look up a see how much she was loved and cherished by others and it gave her courage to go forward into the unknown. It was a reminder to all of us as we reflected on our experience that life is fleeting and eternal all at the same time. It never ends for us, it just changes. Change is a good thing....

Paula - Buenos Aires said...

{{{warmest hug}}} Thinking of you, Paul and all your family.

Annie said...

Dear Robyn - There are no helpful words, only prayers for a peaceful passing for Paul and my prayer for you to take time to find peace within yourself as you say good-bye. Visit later when Paul has moved on. You have important but short time left. Use it well with and for him. We will be here waiting. Love, Annie

Fire Byrd said...

Oh Robyn,
my heart bleeds for you carrying your heavy burden.
I'll send you warm spring showers to help with your carrots.
I'll email you over the weekend
love and certainly peace.
xx

Billie Jane said...

My thoughts and prayers are with all your family... sometimes you just need to take time out to recuperate... Paul is not the only one suffering... all the people around him will be affected too. Be kind to yourself, and here in the bloging world, nice people understand when you have to take a break. x

Janet said...

Robyn, I'm so sorry to hear your sad news about Paul and Rita. At times like this you just have to take good care of yourself and be gentle. Grief and sadness are never the same for any two people. We all handle it differently. I'll keep you and Paul in my thoughts.

Kavindra said...

I'm so sorry Robyn.

I've been offline myself a while now, and just popping in to see how things are. Take care of yourself at this sad time too sweet one.

I'll be thinking of and praying for you all.
Love,
Lisa

peppylady said...

I understand.

Sheila said...

I'm so so sorry to hear about Paul, and your friend.
You must be very upset..xox
My thoughts and prayers, as always, are with you..
much love
xxx

Wendy said...

Awwww, life sucks sometimes! My prayers for Paul and Rita. It seems that when the seasons change, there are more and more souls leaving this Earth.

I hope your garden will bring you some new energy.
Hugs

Strawberry Girl said...

I will be thinking about you... here are some *Hugs* and some good vibes ~ ~

~Annie

Winterwood said...

I am on a break too... I have nothing left to say! + having lots of computer probs to add to the mix!I hope youre ok and keep in touch by email if you need to! Hugs and prayers for you all.

Tori said...

Sending light and love that way. I hope things get better. <3

Leanne said...

hugs Robyn, its not as easy time for you, just go with the flow.

love and light, Leanne x

Serena said...

Oh no, Robyn, I am so very sorry to read of Paul's dilemma. I will definitely keep him in my prayers. (((Hugs)))

Amy said...

I'm really sorry Robyn about Paul, I pray for peace for you all in the time that may be potentially to come.

kim said...

I wish I was there to give you a huge hug.

Deedee said...

Oh, Robyn! I know the feeling of just not being able to write much at times. I am thinking of you and your loved ones and wishing you all the best. I will keep Paul in my prayers.

judie said...

I am so sorry you have to go through these hurtful times. I pray for strength for you and your family. You are loved. xoxoxo

gemma said...

dearest Robyn
That song by REM tugs at my heart.
I can feel the hurting.
So sorry about Paul.Thinking of you with prayers in my heart.

Sorrow said...

Oh dear one~
I am so sad to hear this..
I will continue to hold paul close in thought and prayer.
and you to, for the strength to let go, and love still.
Be good to you...

Pam said...

Robyn, no wonder you are tired. These are stressful times for you and your husband, with your brother-in-law's health such a concern.Know that all of you continue to be in my thoughts and prayers. xxx

Ruth said...

I am sending you my thoughts and prayers Robyn. Who knows what is happening with Paul, but whatever happens it is the right thing. Visit my blog and sit awhile amongst the healing greenery.

Moonroot said...

Dear Robyn,

So sorry to hear this news. My thoughts are with you & your family.

Night Owl said...

So sorry about Paul, I'm thinking of you and your family x

A bird in the hand said...

My prayer for Paul is that whatever happens that he has peace in his heart and the love and understanding of the people around him.

It's been a difficult spring for many of us. But we will survive and survive well.

Love, C.

Tinker said...

Saying prayers for your family member, Robyn - and hugs to you. XOXO

Lola Enchanted said...

I hope things start to brighten up in your enchanted world!

Genie Sea said...

Hugs sweetie! Just popped by to tell you I am thinking of you and praying for all of you.

Angela said...

So sorry Paul is not doing well and that another friend passed as well. My heart and thoughts are with you all.