most of you know that I am a Simple Abundance devotee. Right now I am struggling... very odd because I am in a good place, although once again,I can feel change blowing through my soul. It is not like before where I have to hang on for dear life.. wondering where the hell i am headed.
Most of you also know how much I have changed over the years and morphed into someone else. someone else in the same body. this is yet another hat perhaps?
I just know I am morphing once again and this time, I am going with the flow. Last year I spent much of my time wafting around in a spiritual cloud... listening to Gregorian chants or soul stirring music. Not grounded much at all. Just lately I have been playing Edith Piaf once again and i found some delicious Italian cafe music on iTunes..... but in doing this, I struggle internally. Sounds all very odd but here goes... listening to the chants or other 'spiritual' music makes me feel like I am connected, that I am a spiritual being... but playing Ella or Edith makes me feel guilty. It makes me feel guilty for not being spiritually inclined. But it stirs my soul. so that is good.... "The soul is here for it's own joy" so Rumi says... so it seems I am on the right track. Maybe it is time to blend the spiritual me with the everyday me.
I have started to look at my home with new eyes..... some crystals have been put away for the time being, I am changing my kitchen colours (thank heaven I have a gorgeous guy who is a builder specialising in kitchens!), I am changing alot in my home.. some pictures put up and others taken down... my home morphs along with me. I have rediscovered my kitchen.. cooking meals and singing along with Edith... gathering basil and tomatoes from my kitchen garden and making slow oven- roasted tomatoes to put into a pasta dish... having fun. being my authentic self. who ever that is at the time.
the other thing that is changing once again is my spiritual leanings... Mary has once again made her presence known to me... I have a desire once again to wear my miraculous medal. Not to go to Mass or say the rosary but to have her around me in the way of statues, medals and pictures. Luckily I have many of those here in my home already. I collect catholic religious icons. Love them. I still adore my Buddha statue.. it still brings me peace.
Simple Abundance has asked what is it that I love. And you know, I don't really know. I don't know what I love...... it is like I don't know myself. I sat with my journal and jotted a few things that came to mind: vintage religious relics, taupe, cafe au lati, mauves and pale blue wash. Chandelier prisms, rusty candle holders. french birds.....(and my garden, of course but that is a given...)... so hang on dear friends... we are off on another journey !! like I said, same place, same person. but different