"She seemed to come suddenly upon happiness as if she had surprised a butterfly in the Winter woods"
(edith wharton)

Wednesday, 4 February 2009

morphing once again... hang on I am off on another journey... not a new blog but a new me.. lord help us.

most of you know that I am a Simple Abundance devotee. Right now I am struggling... very odd because I am in a good place, although once again,I can feel change blowing through my soul. It is not like before where I have to hang on for dear life.. wondering where the hell i am headed.

Most of you also know how much I have changed over the years and morphed into someone else. someone else in the same body. this is yet another hat perhaps?

I just know I am morphing once again and this time, I am going with the flow. Last year I spent much of my time wafting around in a spiritual cloud... listening to Gregorian chants or soul stirring music. Not grounded much at all. Just lately I have been playing Edith Piaf once again and i found some delicious Italian cafe music on iTunes..... but in doing this, I struggle internally. Sounds all very odd but here goes... listening to the chants or other 'spiritual' music makes me feel like I am connected, that I am a spiritual being... but playing Ella or Edith makes me feel guilty. It makes me feel guilty for not being spiritually inclined. But it stirs my soul. so that is good.... "The soul is here for it's own joy" so Rumi says... so it seems I am on the right track. Maybe it is time to blend the spiritual me with the everyday me.

I have started to look at my home with new eyes..... some crystals have been put away for the time being, I am changing my kitchen colours (thank heaven I have a gorgeous guy who is a builder specialising in kitchens!), I am changing alot in my home.. some pictures put up and others taken down... my home morphs along with me. I have rediscovered my kitchen.. cooking meals and singing along with Edith... gathering basil and tomatoes from my kitchen garden and making slow oven- roasted tomatoes to put into a pasta dish... having fun. being my authentic self. who ever that is at the time.

the other thing that is changing once again is my spiritual leanings... Mary has once again made her presence known to me... I have a desire once again to wear my miraculous medal. Not to go to Mass or say the rosary but to have her around me in the way of statues, medals and pictures. Luckily I have many of those here in my home already. I collect catholic religious icons. Love them. I still adore my Buddha statue.. it still brings me peace.

Simple Abundance has asked what is it that I love. And you know, I don't really know. I don't know what I love...... it is like I don't know myself. I sat with my journal and jotted a few things that came to mind: vintage religious relics, taupe, cafe au lati, mauves and pale blue wash. Chandelier prisms, rusty candle holders. french birds.....(and my garden, of course but that is a given...)... so hang on dear friends... we are off on another journey !! like I said, same place, same person. but different


Fire Byrd said...

Oh I do love a journey, so I'll hang on to your coat tails to see where you go.

Tracy said...

I often feel adrift, not sure that I truly know what I love....and I love so many different things, styles, etc. But I think that change can be good.

Just remember to enjoy the journey! xx

Wendy said...

I find my home changes when I do too. Oh please will you send your gorgeous kitchen designer or renovator to my house? Pretty please?? LOL!
Enjoy your journey. It seems the time of year for change - at least over here. We've just had Imbolc - winter's mid-point.

linda may said...

You go girl! Live and love and learn along the way.

peppylady said...

Stop over on the 4th of Feb or I believe it would be the 5th for you.
I'm tagging you.

Genie Sea said...

Spirituality, joy and abundance are so glorious, what fuels them might change, but they don't :)

Pam said...

Whheeee -have fun with it. We are all made up of so many aspects. Sometimes I genuinely feel in a state of grace, feel more suited to a convent contemplative life, and am humbled. Other times, roaring laughing with my daughter,or enjoying my husband's company, or full flight in a cursing temper,I think maybe not.It doesn't mean fickle, it doesn't mean "when it suits" as my negative self-talk has tried to accuse. I actually defend my stance with the fact that even those who live a very spiritual life are only human. Jesus himself cursed the fig tree, and overturned the tables in the temple. These days it would be seen as "Jesus has a tantie" , "Jesus throws a hissy fit" or "Jesus spits the dummy". You are very true to yourself Robyn - all of these things you love,and your "stages" of doing things are are inter-changeable.Things may be packed away for the time being, but no doubt they will come out again. It's good. It means you are not static, and stuck. You are open, interesting and interested.Jesus didn't stay put. He did the modern day equivilant of road trips.I'm sure he would have been more than happy on the back of a motorbike ....and on the bus today, coming home from town, I watched a young mother,lightly veiled, of middle-eastern appearance with a little boy of an age not yet talking but making squeals of delight. The mother and son were beautiful to watch. These two were much more Christ-like than our anglicized blond, blue-eyed Christmas card versions of madonna and child, with looks and language much more close to ethnic origin also.Tracy commented about feeling adrift. I think that's more interesting than tethered down - it opens up more possibilities.You are just exploring different aspects of yourself,beautifully mystical,wonderfully magical,and oh-so- practical, - all Robyn.I meant to leave a two-lined comment.Whoops.

Winterwood said...

Je non regrette rien - in the words of edith herself! I am so looking forward to where this next morph takes you! Exciting journey!!

Kavindra said...

I love this post, aside from the particulars such as Edith Piaf, I feel I could have written it myself. I have to stop myself from completely morphing - if I completely had my wont I would change my name, my haircolor, my religion, my whole wardrobe, my living locale and maybe a few other things that aren't coming to mind right now, every few months or so.

Just think, you're like Madonna (oops that may not be too comforting to you! lol)

Tinker said...

This past year, I've been more into cooking than I've been in years - though lately I've been feeling more introspective and soul-searching...perhaps it's some northern/southern hemisphere season of life thing and we're trading spaces?!
Really, I think maybe at different times of our lives, different aspects of us just want us to pay more attention to one side or another, to keep us well-rounded.
As for spirituality, music and the home - well, Mary was a mother and homemaker - and I wonder if the songs she hummed while she cooked were always hymns? Probably even then, there were tunes that weren't necessarily spiritual, but just made you feel good to hear them...Sending hugs your way~

Anonymous said...

Hi Robyn, I have packed my bag and am ready to follow you in your journey ; ) have a great day !! By the way, I love Ella too : )

Tori said...

Enjoy your journey! It's good that you're going with the flow. =)

Sheila said...

Is it another journey, or just a continuation of this one? Why can't your tastes be eclectic, we can like lots of different things. They can change with our mood or the seasons. Don't analyse it, just go with the flow, and enjoy it all. We constantly evolve and grow, that's what makes life interesting I think.

Bimbimbie said...

Hello you Morphing Robyn ... turn Edith and Ella up high and blow those guilt strings far away*!*

peppylady said...

We're all different and that's the way it should and need to be.
Where you feet and land that is where you need to be at that time for how short or long how long.
It not to be known enjoy your place where it may be.

Coffee is on.

Serena said...

WOW! I can understand exactly what you mean and I can't wait to read more about your current morph stage. Go, girl!

Anonymous said...

I love this post. I am constantly re-inventing myself, so I can relate to much of what you've written here.
I was raised Catholic and find comfort in my grandmother's rosary beads.
AND I have a Buddha statue too! Right on my altar - he is so peaceful.

Anonymous said...

Another new journey, I wish I had your energy :-)

A bird in the hand said...

I don't think you're morphing into someone else... I think you are integrating all the delicious parts of yourself into one complete Robyn!


Anonymous said...

You and me both and me both.

Love the new look blog.

laoi gaul~williams said...

hooray! morph away lovely we will all be here to follow your wild path!

Anonymous said...

Thinking of you today...hope it's not too unbearable.

Janet said...

I still don't think I know who I am and I'm much older than you so don't feel bad. My taste seems to change at the dop of a hat, as well as my interest in things. Just go with it! Journeys are fun and who knows what you'll learn.