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"She seemed to come suddenly upon happiness as if she had surprised a butterfly in the Winter woods"
(edith wharton)


Tuesday, 4 May 2010

whoa another hot flush

today was a mixed bag of sorts.. I was supposed to go for a walk with my friend Bea, to Minnehaha Falls [an aboriginal women's sacred place] to do a little ritual to help me with my anger /rage that I have been feeling..
over the past few days, I have been doing alot of journalling and 'work on self'.. and Bea, being yet another one of my butterflies.. offered to do the ritual with me.. but upon arrival at her home, she was suffering dreadfully from menopausal women's problems, herself.. so we sat and had tea on her shady verandah instead.. and she proceeded to don her Feng Shui hat when I told her about the numbers thing with my home(s) - those 8's. 1's and 9's..... .. [I am not sure what I think of this Feng Shui business]..
tried to work out which element I am but became confused and ended up being either Earth or Metal.. still not sure. does it matter? but i did think twice when Bea exclaimed loudly 'don't paint your home pink! stay away from pinks and apricots!'... and of course now I will, me, being who I am .. don't like to upset the feng shui elements. so back to the drawing board on colours for Villa Maria... I am leaning towards a mushroom with either purple or blue shutters and door..

my plan for today was to take my inner little girl out after our planned walk and buy her a gift to celebrate.. but my inner little girl is not one who likes to sit and blow bubbles or draw alot [she finds it hard to play].. so I took her to the nursery and bought her an indoor plant.. very feng-shui -ish... [the little girl that was me long time ago, loved to play outside among the plants..and had many friends among the leaves and flowers]

while I was at the nursery choosing the plant and admiring the many water features and the gorgeous wind chimes, I could feel the heat building up inside, i flung my coat to the floor, exclaimed loudly 'menopausal flush'... and proceeded to fan myself furiously with one of their brochures... the woman behind the counter, who I know quite well, turned and said to me 'don't ya hate that.. it has been happening to me for years.. I don't think I will ever get through it'.... - thankyou very much I thought to myself.. - years ?! . I only wanted weeks or at worst case scenario, months... but years ? oh puhlease....
[today, while washing up at the kitchen sink, I looked out the window and the resident Magpie with the sore leg was digging for worms with his beak while 7 crimson rosellas nibbled at the grass seeds nearby.. each in their own little world but sharing it with others]

13 comments:

Winterwood said...

I just dont believe this coincidence.. I was just surfing around looking at feng shui for health in the home and your new post appeared!!! wow how strange is that?

amelia said...

My Nan was 85 when she died and was still getting hot flushes and I have been having them for 20 years now, barely under control with infrequent HRT, so it looks as if it's a family trait. I dread every night with the heat in bed and I don't mean 'that' kind either!!
I am just heading over to Villa Maria!

mxtodis123 said...

Do you know that I have NEVER experienced a hot flash? I think I must have had the easiest menopause in history. I wonder why.
Mary

Diva Kreszl said...

sadly it may very well be years...I like to think of them as power surges!

Debra She Who Seeks said...

We have a magnet on our fridge that says "I'm still hot, but now it comes in flashes."

Kathryn Knoll said...

This is the way of the wise woman. Resistance is futile when it comes to the menopausal changes. Better to accept and learn from. Fighting it only make you more miserable.

Pauline said...

There's so much more to your post than hot flushes but those of us who have been there, done that, can't think of anything else. All I could do was give thanks that I live in this day and age and they are something we can now talk about, laugh about. And if I thought the subject might embarrass a male, it was top of the list.

Manchester Lass, Now and Then said...

I hear you with the hot flushes Robyn. I get fed up of asking DH is it hot or is it just me, his reply is always the same, no it's just you my love:(

Pam said...

I've learnt with auras Robyn, that you don't choose colours,certain colours ARE you, and as such you illicit a response that is unique to you - that resonates. The more we try the harder things become...so go with what resonates with both you and the house, which also has a field that spoke to you. Have you noticed at the nursery that you don't choose the plants, they speak out to you, and you often come away with something quite different to that which you intended? You have not changed your mind - a plant did that for you!Sometimes with plants we're on the same page, sometimes not. The same will happen with your house colours. Eventually, as with past experiences you will choose what feels right when all those energies blend.Disharmony comes with forcing the issue too early-and when you eventually do come out the other side of those debilitating hot flushes you'll never feel cold to the same extent again. As a former "cold as a frog" I'm pleased to say that's a big bonus, specially where you live! Much love to you.xx

Fire Byrd said...

Feeling like you're cooking in a microwave is dire. How about getting one of those roll on lavender pulse spot things that distract you and smell nice even if they don't cool you down!
Hang on in there, after the first five years you just accept them!
xx

gemma said...

Menopause doesn't have to last years. Do you still get massages?
Sometimes they help symptoms. All women are different,so even though some suffer with menopause,others have it go practically unnoticed.
Send your rage to the sun.
:)

Serena said...

I feel for you, Robyn....I only hope that I follow in my Mum's footsteps with menopause and have no symptoms at all apart from missed periods. So far, so good but time will tell, I guess.

Beatnheart said...

I'm having a hot flash just reading this...Stress brings them on for sure...If I get confused or scared...I always wear tank tops now, always!! that way you can strip down to it when needed...and never any tops that pull over my head or ones with buttons. These new wrap around sweaters work well, shawl like things and pashminas...You can yank those off fast...Please come by and visit...I'm having a giveaway !!