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"She seemed to come suddenly upon happiness as if she had surprised a butterfly in the Winter woods"
(edith wharton)


Tuesday, 11 May 2010

tugs at my heart?

why is it that today while working in my journal for this weeks Walking in this World..
cutting and pasting into my journal,
playing happily..
that I get an overwhelming sense of loss and grief over Daisy... will I always grieve for her? it came from no-where.. she popped into my mind and my heart began to ache...I felt lost.

then later tonight, while watching River Cottage - [Hugh was cooking for some friends] & the word 'tea' was mentioned.. and it tugged at my heart as that is what my Pa called dinner...

these little feelings of loss have me perplexed.. why all of a sudden do these kind of things pop into ones mind?

17 comments:

mxtodis123 said...

I've been going through much the same thing lately. Lots of little things popping up to remind me of my mom and grandma. Perhaps it is my work on genealogy that has triggered this; perhaps it is just time to start remembering.
Mary

Debra She Who Seeks said...

I think times of transition stir up all sorts of things -- emotions, memories, old regrets. When one thing is in flux, other things swirl around in the mix as well.

Diva Kreszl said...

the heart will always remember those we love, the slighest memory can bring it all back.

amelia said...

I don't know why they pop into the mind but I know they do and when they do, I find the best thing to do is to give the feelings some validation and not push them away.
Maybe you need to focus more on Daisy until you come to a peaceful place with her...

Kathryn Knoll said...

wow! why? It's such a common human experience. Many ignore or stuff unpleasant feelings. If we open to the all of it, we will also experience sadness and joy, gift and Loss. It is part of the whole journey. You would be unhappy if there was no contrast....

Crystalrainbow said...

(((((((((((Hugs))))))))))))) i think sometimes this happens to us all for no explained reason just except and go with it all will become clear eventually.. Re my ME try looking at this link http://www.sleepydust.net/ it may explain much more than i can. I was suffering un diagnosed for over 10 years and eventually got a diagnoses about 5 years ago there are no tests really just lots of tests to rule out everything else. Its one of those illness that no one seems to understand and no 2 doctors will give the same advise. I now try and listen to my body and do whats best for me. I still have weeks in bed and some good weeks. But most days are spent resting to conserve energy for tasks like shopping and visiting friends. Hubby is a gem and does most things for me. The hardest part is to stop feeling guilty about the things you cant do :) hope the link helps hun ask away if i can help further x x x x

Janet said...

We always miss loved ones when they're gone. Maybe those little moments are when they're thinking of you.

I still think of Daisy. She was such a special and unique person.

~Sheila~ said...

I think they may be gentle reminders of those who we have loved and lost... yet they still have an influence on us.
xo

gemma said...

The things I have saved that Daisy
sent mean so much to me. The doll she made sits in a place I often see.
I understand your tender thoughts.

Beatnheart said...

This is the days of our lives...sometimes good or great or whatever...we all seem to be going through the same thing...yikes, is it middle age...whoa....

Anyhow, I am having a Giveaway....please stop by and visit( you haven't been in a long time , naughty girl)..

Tinker said...

Oddly, I just visted Daisy's site earlier tonight. I hadn't been by there for awhile. It felt good to re-read some of her garden and history tales.
Sometimes I wonder if we're in their thoughts at the time we're thinking of them - little whispers we hear subconsciously - their way of saying hello...
Hugs to you~XOXO

Pam said...

We know those who have passed wish not to be forgotten. We, however, cannot help the feeling of sadness and loss at the experience.True feelings from the heart ask not to be ignored. If we thought and acted more from our hearts,than our minds, the world would surely be a better place. Yours are feelings from the heart Robyn, and I guess its a beautiful sadness in a way. Sun behind a cloud, but no less beautiful and strong.

Ruth said...

We call it tea too! And I have been missing Sally lately - I guess we always miss those who have gone. Several times in the last few weeks I have felt a great sense of sadness and loss, and nostalgia for the past, when she was alive.

A bird in the hand said...

This is very natural. We never forget those we love.

xoxo

Monique said...

Those feelings sometimes surface, but it's good. They are a part of who you are, a part of your life.
Big hugs !!

Lisa said...

With Daisy, I think she is determined that we remember her. She pops into my mind as well and we weren't remotely as close as the two of you. Some people just seem to take a spot in our hearts and the void they leave comes to focus over and over. I try to use those times to remind me to really "see" those who are still among us and show them all the love I can.

Winterwood said...

hope youre ok as you havent posted in for a while robyn... I am assuming youre just very busy with your new place?