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"She seemed to come suddenly upon happiness as if she had surprised a butterfly in the Winter woods"
(edith wharton)


Saturday, 9 January 2010

taking a leap

sometimes thoughts come floating through my mind, not expected but none-the-less they come without an invite..... taking me to places that I never thought I would go... tempting me with adventures, taking me out of my comfortable space....

the thought that has me in a pickle right now is one of moving... moving from Inglewood here in Woodford.. from a home where we have lived for the past 10yrs... weddings, births, deaths and illnesses & much love.. all woven into the magic that is Inglewood.. it seems just like yesterday that Dutch husband and I donned the renovating gloves and worked hard, creating our gorgeous Inglewood

putting heart and soul into it.

But now whispers of change flit through my mind... excitement mixed with trepidation. Fear of taking an unknown step.. what if it is a mistake to move?....I wish I had a crystal ball to look into, one that could show me what decision i will make.. then I would know what to do. I would know the right fork to take at this crossroads

a lovely little home, just ten minutes away has made itself known to us...one that needs love just like Inglewood did when we first stepped over the threshold 10yrs ago.. perfect design, smaller garden with a wonderful backbone ~ my fingers itch to get into it ~ location perfect, close to things we love

~ a home that we could put our mark on in a flash ...

dutch husband is like a little boy waiting for Christmas ~ excited at the prospect of a challenge, promising me that we could make our new home just as gorgeous as Inglewood, but I am still afraid to take that first step ~ I need to take a leap of faith, hold my man's hand and jump!

11 comments:

Debra She Who Seeks said...

I know your heart will find the right path!

Janet said...

It could be fun to breathe life back into a home....bring it back and make it beautiful. Home is where the heart is.

Serena said...

A whole new adventure awaits...listen to your heart and you will know the way ~ xo

amelia said...

It's so hard leaving a place you love so much. I know the feeling well, we did that when we moved here from Toronto. Scott had gutted our little house there and made it the perfect home but here we are now and i can't ever think of leaving here now!!
Wherever you go you will make it your own...

Moonroot said...

Oh Robyn, I can so relate! At the moment I am mentally going back and forth between the idea of really rooting myself here and building on what has been established over the last ten years. On the other hand I often feel a strong yearning to break away and start afresh after my divorce. All the more complicated as my parents have just upped sticks and moved right across the country to a new home just a few miles from Halfway Up A Hill. I hate making decisions at the best of times and this is so hard!
But I'm sure eventually both of us will find the right answer...

Moncha said...

Hi Robyn,
first of all happy 2010, it's late I know, but I didn't know you were back again ; )
What a great desicion lies in front of you and manlief ( hubby dear in Dutch ).
I wish you lots of wisdom and insight to make the right choise.
It's exciting to say the least ; )
Have a wonderful weekend !!!

gemma said...

Having moved a number of times I do understand your dilema.
Follow your heart.

laoi gaul~williams said...

take his hand and make a wonderful jump into the new :)

Meredith said...

Oh, wow... that's exciting -- and scary, too! I understand your wish for a crystal ball. Who knows where we'll end up once F.'s out of grad school?

Inglewood is lovely. But I can feel that part of you is excited about the possibilities of change... can't wait to hear what you decide!

Ruth said...

We sometimes think about moving to a smaller house - but we never seem to find anywhere that we like as much as where we live now. A difficult descision I guess - why not making a list for and and list against and see which list is longer?

Pam said...

I'm with you on this one Robyn.Know this feeling!!Sometimes we catch a wave while not really knowing we were waiting for one!!xx