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"She seemed to come suddenly upon happiness as if she had surprised a butterfly in the Winter woods"
(edith wharton)


Tuesday, 12 January 2010

a question of belief, of faith..

yesterday, my belief was questioned.. in passing conversation, dutch husband had innocently told someone that i was a 'white witch'...(which is a term I don't particularly like or agree with. I am a hedge witch if anything...) & I was asked why I thought as I did.

and i became tongue tied, flustered. like I was being cross examined. I fumbled with my buttons and stuttered over my words, saying something about it being in my genes from Cornwall, feeling like a phony because I could not explain what i felt or believed... in the end, I said I would write it down and let them read it later. and left it at that.

(if you click on the photo above, you will see something, I am not sure they are orbs but my lens was clean and it was not raining..)

but while outside this morning (a misty cool morning), asking for my morning blessings.. breathing in that cool mist air that makes your lungs want to breathe more deeply to absorb the essence of the mist.... I realized two things... ONE was that there are no words to describe my belief, my faith.. because it is deep within me, it is part of me and to even begin to try to explain would take away the sacredness of it.. and the SECOND thing that i realized, was that Inglewood is not just a house, a home or a garden.. it is an aura... an energy. and I must stay here for the time being for whatever reason. I am not yet READY to move on....

11 comments:

Winterwood said...

robyn those orbs are definately spirits.. saw a tv show the other day and thats how they show up. DD took a pic of an old prison here and yes, same orbs lots of them too...they were told they are spirits. Fancy you having them in the garden. What was your place before the house was put there?

Diva Kreszl said...

Glad to hear you are at peace with your decision to stay at Inglewood, it seems your friendly bird is happy too! You don't need to explain your faith to anyone, it is indeed a part of your being that defies words.

Moncha said...

What a beautiful picture. Those little orbs are fantastic. You are so right to stay at Inglewood !!
It is hard to explain your faith, it is a feeling, very deep inside, it is you, the person you are and it's hard to explain !!
Have agreat day !!

Deedee said...

We can't be defined by one aspect of ourselves. You are many things to many different people, as we all are. Those who ignore that fact diminish us.

Janet said...

Being put on the spot like that would make anyone stumble with their thoughts. Whenever I'm asked questions like that I can never respond coherently! Several hours later I always come up with what I should have said. Don't feel bad about it. You know in your heart and soul what you believe and that's what matters.

Kathryn Knoll said...

The problem with belief is that we are led to believe we have to explain it to convince others that they should have the same experience. Believing something is not the same as knowing something.I can believe something because someone told me it was true, but knowing is something you just experience and know deep down in your soul and no one can talk you out of your experiential knowing. You know what I mean....

Leanne said...

Robyn, take another look at the first photo on this post- the green tinted one. I can see two figures/ faces in the tree. One is a face peeping between the branches. The second looks like a small angel, in robes,m seated, facing right? can you see them?

leanne x

Sorrow said...

That is was belief is suppose to be isn't it? something sacred and personnel. It is your relationship with the divine.
Just as the earth speaks to you in one place and not in another.
(((((MISSS R*)))))))

Serena said...

Our belief is a deep soul connection that we feel within and there are many facets so defining it just can't be done in a matter of minutes. Don't feel bad...I know I would have been exactly the same.

Ruth said...

I know exactly how you feel - I used to feel flustered like that when someone questioned me. Nowadays it doesn't bother me, because I lknow that my beliefs are right for ME and what they believe is up to them :-)

gemma said...

Garden spirits...such good energy.