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(edith wharton)


Thursday, 8 October 2009

Yesterday

yesterday I closed Inglewood. I needed to gather my energies. My inner child is crying out for some comfort and I need to work on this.. I felt lost, desolate and truly soul weary. So I just closed the blog... but now.. after a few emails with friends, I know there are things that I must work through and I am going to do this here.. honestly.. funny that. Because yesterday I received an award for being Honest and I thank, from the bottom of my heart, LAOI for seeing that I am honest in my writings..

I don't usually accept awards for blogging.. for the simple reason that over the years.. I have felt left out when I didn't receive one (my inner child insecurity I think) and I hate passing them on in fear of leaving someone out and them feeling 'not good enough' to receive the award.. but now, because my inner child is hurting.. I am gonna grab this award and put it proudly on my blog - but I am not going to pass it on for those reasons I mentioned. I believe that each and every one of my friends here deserves this. we all write from our hearts and when we do that, we are being honest. well, that is my belief.

this is what the award said:
As honest bloggers we:

* Speak our truth from the heart and tell it like it is
* Share openly and honestly our true feelings without fear of judgement, Blame or shame.
* We write to share our achievements so others can also share our joy.
* We write about our bad times too, knowing that the love and support of others is around us and perhaps heal another’s pain in the process..
*We are human beings will real feelings and emotions and REFUSE to hide behind a mask.
* We dare to be different
* We are Free Spirits
* We realise that by spilling out, we lighten our load.
* We acknowledge our strengths and weaknesses and don't see them in terms of success or failure.
* We laugh together and cry together
* We are all following our own journey in our own unique way
* Above all else, we may lie on the floor, screaming and kicking, or feel like life is collapsing around us once in a while….but at the end of the day, we drag ourselves up, dust ourselves off and rise to fight another day.

For we are Warrior Women and we write not to please others, stroke our own egos or be judged, we blog because we care! Our blogs are our therapy, and through sharing SHIfT HAPPENS!

16 comments:

Diva Kreszl said...

I'm so gald to hear you'll be hanging in there with us...it would have saddened me to lose your posts!

Kathryn Knoll said...

couldn't have said it better. I am proud of you and proud to know you! Many blessings and lots of hugs all around!

Laurie said...

Dear Robyn,
I am sorry you are going through a rough time right now, but I think you have a wonderful support system here ~ we care about you.

What a wonderful post ~ and the timing was perfect for me. I have been going through some issues with my blog and very nearly deleted it last night.

Thank you for being such an inspiration.

Hugs))

Wendy said...

Congrats on the award!!
Sending your inner child lots and lots of hugs (and chocolate, of course). I too have been feeling out of energy for a bit. I seem to need to gather in myself, if that makes any sense.
Namaste

Mel said...

(((hugs))))))

Glad you're back....sorry you're hurting....

Hope you know that we are all here....if nothing else, than just to bear witness.....

~love~

Tori said...

Hearing about the bad times a blogger is going through only makes them seem more real. Honest blogs are more personal and easier to connect to. Thank you for being honest! <3

gemma said...

A huge shift in communication between like minded souls is here. A place where ancient tribes are
reconnecting. No coincidences.
Thank You for speaking your truth
and encouraging others.
with Love

Meredith said...

I think this is wonderful - and totally deserved!

You do tell it like it is, Robyn, and I'm sorry you were feeling so soul weary :( Sending you all the uplifting vibes I can muster after a rough week, myself!

When I tried to open Tales of Inglewood and it told me it was not available, it was like a huge gaping hole had opened in my cyber world. So glad you're back.

Fire Byrd said...

Ask the universe for what you need and you will always get. It just might not be what you were expecting though, but I believe what we get has been given for a reason, which may take us a while to work out.
xx

docwitch said...

Woohoo! So glad you're keeping your blog open. I tried to visit yesterday and noticed that you'd locked it, (totally understand you needing to this - have thought about doing so myself in the past).

Anyway, lovely to be here reading you. And as for the award - well, you're one of the people I was wanting to pass this onto...hehe. So I shall second that motion!

mountainmama said...

i'm glad you received this award, you are certainly deserving! and i can understand your feelings about awards and passing them along.

i wish you all the best as you work through whatever it is you are feeling.

Debra She Who Seeks said...

The universe is speaking to you through that award! KOB (Keep on Blogging!)

~Sheila~ said...

Phew..! Rob you had me worried there, I couldn't get in and wasn't sure what to make of it.
I've felt like SHIfT lately, and haven't blogged much. I have however popped in to see how friends are doing, even when I haven't left comments. Feeling I have nothing worth saying.
Maybe it's the change of seasons, the moon or whatever, I know that as in the past, this too shall pass.
Big hugs
xx

Serena said...

Good for you, Robyn! I'm so glad you re-opened Inglewood. Know that we are here to listen and support you as you find your way. (((Hugs)))

Paula - Buenos Aires said...

Oh, my love! The warmest, most comforting hug for you. As one of the awards line says: spill out and light the burden. I´ll always be here for you. Even when you have nothing to say. Thinking of you.

laoi gaul~williams said...

i am so glad you have had a re-think robyn-you have been there from the beginging of my blogging experience and i have gained so much from your words and thoughts.

it seems there are many of us all experiencing darkness in one way or another and it is up to us tribe of spiritually like-minded bloggers to rally around and keep up the support...and blogging of course!