the outlook for Paul my brother in law is not good. Today he was given the news that he has maybe a year. the tumour is inoperable and radiation will only delay the inevitable. he will be kept comfortable but each day we visit he is downhill even more.
that is all I can say right now.. it's not fair is coming to mind.. or why him? why not someone else who is not a nice person. someone who isn't a wonderful father and husband.
but no words can change this. I could shake my fist at God or I could stamp my feet in anger..but that doesn't do a thing. like they say. thems the breaks.
we go on with our lives right now.. with a kind of sadness knowing that we cannot do a thing. with an emptiness that we know is coming for us. an ache in our hearts. we must keep living though. I know that. we must laugh. we must be thankful that we have had this wonderful soul in our lives and be blessed by him.
so I ask each of you to keep him in your prayers, your heart, your thoughts or wishes.. whatever it is you do at times like this. that he may not be scared, that he may be comfortable and that he may know he is much loved xo