"She seemed to come suddenly upon happiness as if she had surprised a butterfly in the Winter woods"
(edith wharton)

Sunday, 30 March 2008

where have you been?

Oh, where have you been, my blue-eyed son?
Oh, where have you been, my darling young one?
I've stumbled on the side of twelve misty mountains,
I've walked and I've crawled on six crooked highways,
I've stepped in the middle of seven sad forests,
I've been out in front of a dozen dead oceans,
I've been ten thousand miles in the mouth of a graveyard,
And it's a hard, and it's a hard, it's a hard, and it's a hard,
And it's a hard rain's a-gonna fall.

not quite..... but I have been to our gypsy caravan for 3 days.... having fun... I looked out at the lightning as I lay in my bed at night... I watched the water early each morning, I scrubbed and played house and I went to the showers in the cold late at night and I had fun doing it, those night time skies are just glorious when there are no fluorescent city lights to dim the real night sky. The stars are awesome.. I cannot wait to be able to lie out under the stars and Moon and do some moon bathing.......And looking like a glamour queen as I toddled off to have my shower - sweat pants, lime green socks, red and white spotted canvas shoes, hair in a clip with a headband... oh yes, pure glamour is what I am~.... and always forgetting something.. even one night, I left my pyjama pants in the caravan... had my shower and I realized they were missing... and had to wear only my undies and a t-shirt.. freezing cold, dark night! thankfully the t-shirt was a long one! I realized then that I must devise a plan that I can have for when I go next time.. there has to be an easier way! I bought myself a gorgeous vintage dressing gown from the local op shop to wear down there... Sleeping in the caravan at night was fun... I felt adventurous. It is something I haven't done since I was about 10.... I had forgotten just how cold it can get. We got to meet some of the other 'caravaners' and we had fun planning on how we were going to decorate it... we even decided that the name must be 'Gypsy Caravan'.. it suits much better than Kashmir...

and you know what? Not once did I worry about my 'spiritual journey'.. not once. I read a book that was not a self help book.... and didn't ponder my life at all. I just looked out at the water and was satisified in the moment.

this is what I look at from our caravan... could it be any more perfect than that?

Tomorrow, I will probably wake up and wonder again why I am here and get myself into some kind of state as I do...... but I seem to be functioning so much better when I just live my life.... not worrying about meditating and stuff... living in the moment, doing what I am supposed to be doing... I do get so carried away worrying about 'doing it right'.. meditating til I get myself into a Zen state or contacting those from the other side or saying millions of affirmations, constantly worrying that I am saying the right ones or enough of them, until I am in a state of high anxiety... then it is like my great grandmother Laura slaps me up the back of the head and tells me to wake up to myself and get on with life... then I remember Daisy just pottering and not meditating much at all... content... and when i do that, I am content too.........

I have also been helping my daughter and her husband by cooking meals and delivering a day or two supply to help them over those hard first days at home. Harry is t hriving and I am going to visit them tomorrow night.. to have some more cuddles. He is simply perfect. I love him!

I am tired, but a good tired... so off to be for me now.... then tomorrow I am going to get stuck into my washing, clean my bathrooms. Then, I hope to make myself a cup of tea and take time for you - my friends.... I love you all so very much... deeply and I feel very blessed that each of you are part of my journey... wherever it may take us xo


linda may said...

G'Day Robyn,
Or should I say Nanna? Congratulations, it is always lovely to hear about a new little life in the world. I love babies the most when they are new born and completely dependent, innocent and a unwritten on page. Makes me teary. One day, don't know when, I might get to be a Nanna to with a bit of luck. Has something to do with me wanting my kids to be loved the way they should be and continue the genes.

linda may said...

G'Day Robyn,
Or should that be Nanna. Congratulations on your new grand child. I love babies best when they are new born and completely dependent on you, a new life and a whole new page to write on. Makes me teary. If I am lucky, I might even get a grandchild one day, don't know when though. Hopeing.

Krissie said...

oh so good to hear your voice here once more - glad that ALL is well and that you were off enjoying some you time!! thats the way! I have missed your posts!!

Peggy said...

What a awesome view! Moonlight walks even without pj bottoms :) must be heaven. Give the little one a kiss on the forehead for me.

kim said...

I always left a set of things at our lake home, so I wouldn't have to pack a lot.

Kathryn Knoll said...

Caravan camping sounds like fun. There is nothing like living in a simple way in the now moment. The trouble with that is that we get caught up in the shoulds of life and drift far away from NOW. You'll find if you really follow your heart, you are always HOME...Hugs, Sr.K

Autumn said...

It sounds like you are having a lovely time. I hope you take some photos of the caravan, We don't have those here. I love to camp, but we use a tent. I never remember to talk everything I need to the bath house. I can't begin to tell you how many times I have forgot soap or toothpaste. I usually go home feeling much more dirty than when we came, but it is still fun. As you know it is spring here so camping season will be here soon. Yippie

Night Owl said...

Sounds like you've had a wonderful time :-)

Bimbimbie said...

It's lovely to just potter and drift away enjoying the moment and what you are doing. Sounds like you are going to be have lots of fun doing just that at your Gypsy Caravan x *!*

Gemma said...

lime green socks, red and white spotted canvas shoes...
Love it!!!
So glad you had a nice getaway!

peppylady said...

Oh this is a wonderful timing my oldest Sawyer came home to visit for few days and enjoyed reading it.
I want to hear his adventure but I don't want to come across as a busy body.

Pearl said...

Greetings Robyn,
Glad to read that you are revelling in your time at the gypsy caravan. Lucky you. I with you on the trip to the showers, I always leave something behind in the cabin.
Congratulations on the new grandson,
Harry. Another blessing in your life.

Pixiedust said...

It sounds like you had a lovely time, and seems you needed it, after the last couple of weeks of waiting and worrying about family. I did chuckle imagining you skipping across a field in your undies hehehe!

Tina said...

Good to know that you love it at your new “out” place. No one asks how you look on the way to the showers early morning and late night. And hey, it is ok to just live and cherish the moment. Don’t think too much. I always think too much, too and mostly worry about tomorrow. And forget to live today…

amelia said...

That's so great Robyn that your mind was able to relax for a couple of days.

You need to do that more often and obviously having your grandson has given you lots to do and think about. I bet they're grateful for having meals delivered!!

Sacred Suzie said...

Robyn, thank you. Thank you for reminding us that by just being, we are at our most spiritual inner place. The struggle to find our path is sometimes what takes us off it, by thinking too much. And yes, sometimes a salad is sacred! My salad definitely feels that way, it also feeds my spirit.

solsticedreamer said...

robyn how funny!
i was laying in bed last night, listening to radio 4 and wishing i was sleeping in 'pippin' again~forgettign all about the snow and frozen curtains and found myself wondering about your little home away from home!
and today what do i find when i log in to catch up?!!!

Searching for My Willoughby said...

Thanks for stopping by and your kind thoughts. If you have any suggested reading on Mary Magdalene I would appreciate it. I'm a reader so books are good place for me to start.

I find myself getting so wrapped up in all those questions, going back and trying figure out why I'm here, that I forget to live in the NOW. I need a good kick every once in a while.

Your gypsy caravan sounds wonderful. I daydream about being a gypsy. Maybe someday.

Island Girl Spirit said...

Good to hear from you Robyn . . . sounds like everyone is doing well and you are taking care of yourself!
I too would love to see a picture of the gypsy caravan! Sounds cool . . . check out my newest Sacred Sunday . . . similar to your entry . . . no such thing as coincidences!
warmth, light and joy to you, Harry and Louisa!!
Blessings, Island Girl

tinker said...

Sounds like a wonderful weekend in your gypsy caravan, Robyn. It's amazing to see how many stars there really are, when there aren't any lights around to hide them.
Glad you had such a good time - the view is beautiful.
There's nothing like holding a newborn - it's as though they bring some of the joy and peacefulness of heaven with them, and they share it with everyone who holds them.
Congratulations again - enjoy the love~XOXO